With great interest I got your pages looked through. One question remains to me still useable: Do you feel as a girl or guy than the joy has to girl dresses. Neither one nor that others is reprehensible. And you should learn this principle: "Be who you are". It's not easy ... not mainly in the rural area ... But no one has achieved his goal without struggle. Otherwise, a good tip: Join a friend who understands you ... and support. When make-up, for example, or the choice of Klamoten (not anything like it, fits). Maybe go out in groups; This also helps (!). Otherwise you will, until you die, have to live with compromises ... and thus you will likely get sick than by competing for your self. I would find it a pity, because in the photos, I see a pretty girl (and not a Guy Girls wearing things). And when I look at your pictures, I think: "it is a girl with a lot of potential, who painted this.